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| 04:46pm 19/04/2006 |
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...and in case anyone has wondered what happened to me in the past few months (in case my last entry didn't provide enough information), i have moved on to the darker side. yes, i am on myspace. and, since apparently i cannot link things with the free account anymore, it is www.myspace.com/k_llew
especially since it appears that no one i actually know is on livejournal anymore, rather random people who i vaguely remember since it's more or less been since the summer since i've updated here (minus the road trip). |
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| 12:09pm 19/04/2006 |
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Well, ski season is unfortunately over (at least by Copper Mountain standards) which means that I am being really lazy for the next month. And I now have internet access at my house, so I decided to get this back up and running again. And, apparently, in four months livejournal can change a lot.
So here's a brief update of my life:
I was working Guest Services at Copper Mountain all winter.
I am still living in Summit County.
I will be working as a rafting guide this summer, starting in May.
As brief as it is, it sums everything up pretty well. Yes, working at the mountain was fun, and I'll go back next year. Made a lot of new friends (including a boyfriend, who moved back to Boulder).
There will be more later. This is about all that's going on right now. |
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| 09:03am 22/11/2005 |
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I'm almost home. I have one more stop after this, and that's a fun stop.
Currently, I am in Chicago. But I don't know enough about it yet to write about it.
So we're going back in time. All the way to last week. I can't believe how much time has more or less stopped making any sense in the past three weeks. Some things that feel like they were so long ago were yesterday and things that feel like they were yesterday was back at the beginning of the trip.
Last Monday I arrived in Boston. After getting lost for quite some time (although I'm told that if you drive in Boston, you have to get lost), I finally came upon my hotel...and a very sketchy neighborhood. Tuesday morning I decided to take the T to get to New England School of Law, since I'd been told that parking there is non-existent. I walk for quite some time, and never find the T stop I'm looking for, so I essentially have to walk 2 miles in a half hour to get to the school. And I still manage to make it on time. But it made me realize how bad my neighborhood was in, and how uncomfortable I felt. I took the school law tour and was not too impressed. It is far too urban of a campus for me...in fact, that's just the problem: it's not a campus. It's a building that looks like it could easily be an office building. And I'm looking for something more than that in a school. So NESL got knocked off my list. After the school visit, I actually found my way to the T stop (turns out I didn't go far enough!) and walk home, only to decide that I need to go and move to another hotel. Which I did, and it was pretty cool because it was right next to Fenway Park. And when I say right next to, I mean literally. If I had the room across the hall, I would have been staring at the stadium. I met up with Emily that night, a friend from college (wow, I feel so old saying it like that), and we discussed law school and life over some Irish fare (hey, I'm in Boston, I have to go to an Irish "pub").
Wednesday I make my way down to Boston College and unfortunately really liked it. It's unfortunate because I don't think there is much of a chance of getting accepted to that school. That night the Black Keys were playing in Boston, and conveniently enough they were playing at this club right next to Fenway Park. Which means right next to my hotel. It was nice and convenient and an awesome show (like always).
I took off from Boston on Thursday, and stopped for lunch in Providence, Rhode Island, which is quite a cute little area.
Then I drive into New York City. And my first impression was that it was the worst place in the world. A hint to future travellers: if you are going to NYC for the very first time, DON'T DRIVE! I think my impression would have been much nicer had I not driven. The strangest part is that considering it is a city with such huge skyscrapers, somehow they manage to hide the skyline quite well until it is right there in front of you, staring at you in the face. It is quite intimidating (maybe that's the point), especially at dusk when the building lights aren't really prominent yet which makes all the buildings loom over you like dark giants ready to engulf you. Which is exactly what happened. Somehow I made it onto Manhattan. And just as suddenly I made it off Manhattan, on the way to Long Island. So about 45 minutes later I managed to turn around and back onto Manhattan, only to try to find my hotel, but the one way streets beat me. Another 30 minutes later I somehow found my hotel. At that point I'd already had a nervous breakdown and convinced myself that New York City was the worst place in the world.
I was supposed to stay until Sunday, but I couldn't stay that long. I was lucky that I managed to stay two nights, but I wanted to see a Broadway play.
Friday morning Raleigh and I hung out in Central Park for most of the day. I didn't even bother visiting Cardozo, because I knew I would never be able to spend three years at that school. I couldn't even stay three nights in the city. I also turned that day into a good opportunity to do laundry. That night I saw The Producers. How much more of an appropriate play can I see? A play that makes fun of Nazis? It was made for me. And I was probably laughing louder than anyone else in the theater. Which I think kind of annoyed the guy sitting next to me. Sorry if you don't get all the jokes buddy...
So New York wasn't an entirely miserable experience, but it definitely wasn't liveable. So I took off, and gave myself a nice lazy day of driving and spent the night in Clearfield, PA, which really isn't worth noting.
I found myself in Cleveland on Sunday. I figured I have time, I'll go visit the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame. However, I got to the RR HoF around 1:10. The Browns kickoff was at 1:00. The Browns stadium is right next to the RRHoF. Needless to say, I turned around and headed out to the hotel. And, oddly enough, I didn't mind Cleveland at all. I went out for a nice dinner, I was staying in a really comfortable area. Yesterday I went and visited Case Western Reserve, which is in an absolutely beautiful area. I really liked the school a lot. Go figure.
I made it into Chicago last night, after a quick stop in South Bend (to complete my family's Christmas shopping, a Notre Dame coffee mug for my parents). And, once again, I got lost. One way streets really are not my friends at all.
I decided that I should have asked for a GPS system as an early Christmas present, before I took this trip. Ah, if only I had realized that beforehand. It could have saved me a lot of grief and frustration while driving through cities.
At least I think I have realized why I'm not a city person. And driving/getting lost has a lot to do with it. I normally have a very good sense of direction, so when I do get lost everywhere, it really frustrates me. I'm not used to getting lost. Unless I do it on purpose to explore an area, but that's a completely different story.
Well, I'm about to visit DePaul. I drove by the building last night on my way in, and I think it's going to be too urban of an environment for me, but I don't want to rule it out before I've seen it. However, at this point in time, I think I have narrowed my decision down the three (and a half) schools. And I even know the order. So now all we have to do is hope that I'll get into at least one of these three. But here's the standing:
1. U. of Minnesota
2. U. of Denver
(2 1/2. Boston College. It's 2 1/2 because I doubt I'll get in.)
3. Case Western Reserve
Tomorrow I'm headed up to Milwaukee to spend Thanksgiving with Ben and his family. Well, at least we aren't datng anymore or else it would be really awkward meeting his entire family (including his parents) for the first time. Although it's still going to be awkward figuring out sleeping arrangements and stuff, because he is staying in a hotel with his dad, his mom is staying on the couch of her mom's apartment, and I think I'm going to stay in the same hotel as him and his dad (they do take dogs), but we were trying to figure it out last night and it just sounds really weird.
Not weird, an adventure.
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| 08:32pm 13/11/2005 |
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Today I have been in two states and two countries.
And apparently if the state of your driver's license and your car's license plates don't match up, you are a threatening person driving into or out of Canada.
And I even saw someone I knew today!
The personal part of my trip has come and gone. I spent two days and three nights up in the U.P. (Upper Peninsula, Mich.), a place I probably would never have travelled to if it hadn't been for Ben. It's actually quite a beautiful place, and I really like the town he's in right now, much better than his old town. His old town was very white trash, but this one is like a cozy little community.
The first night we stayed with his friend Josh in Marquette. Well, one of Josh's dogs was in heat, so even though Raleigh's neutered, and honestly has no clue what to do (you should have seen the confused look on his face when she kept putting her butt in his face), unfortunately he had to sleep in the car. When we got to Ben's place in Grand Marais, we had to be all espionage with Raleigh. He lives in employee housing, which means no dogs allowed. So we had to wait until dark to bring Raleigh in and then take him out way early in the morning, before it was light and before his boss came to work.
But that's about as much of this part of the trip I'm willing to discuss. But I don't mean that in a bad way, that anything bad happened, because it didn't.
Yesterday I drove downstate into the main part of Michigan (or the Trolls, according to the Yoopers, but who follows anything they say). I knew that my trip entitled me a trip right through beautiful Flint, Michigan (please note the sarcasm), and the go east into Canada. So, I decided I'd seen enough of the gross, super industrial region of Eastern Michigan, and drove the extra hour down into Ann Arbor. Now, naturally, this was on a Saturday, and it was on the Saturday of a home game. Amazingly I found a hotel, and drove up into town. Turns out the town is entirely revolved around the college. I couldn't find anywhere that was playing the Colorado game that a) wasn't super crowed or b) wasn't super smoky, until I found this sports bar right next to the parking lot I had parked in. So I got to watch both tthe CU and the UCLA game on big screen tvs right next to each other. I also had the opportunity to speak with this drunk man who was old enough to be my father about LA, Colorado, Detroit, etc. It was very odd, and definitely not the experience I expected going to Ann Arbor, nor the experience most people will have then they are there.
Today was a fairly long travel day. I went through Detroit, and crossed over into Canada, where I had trouble at the border (see the intro). I spent a very long, boring time driving through Canada. It is quite reminiscent of the American midwest, except some of the signs are in French. Towards the end it became entertaining, because I travelled by the edge of Lake Ontario and over the Erie Canal, where I actually got to see one of the locks filling up to let a boat go through. Then, naturally, I stopped at Niagara Falls. I'd never been before, and I didn't think I'd be too impressed. I drove up to them, and saw the smaller one, and was awestruck. Then I turned the corner and saw the main one, the horseshoe one, and was absolutely amazed beyond all amazement. I even got a really good picture of me and Raleigh in front of it.
So, back in the US. I hit up Rochester, and visit Alex. It was fun, we went out to dinner, and got to catch up, relive old memories, and discuss whatever odd plans we have for the future. Both of us are at least on the same track in that we're planning on being in school forever.
And I just arrived in Syracuse, New York, which is my pit stop for the evening. I'm visiting the law school in the morning. I drove in at night, but was totally shocked. It was absolutely different than I thought it would be. I don't know exactly what I was expecting, but I thought it would be like a slightly bigger version of Boulder. Not a mini city. We'll see what daylight will bring, I suppose. But I should get going. Early morning tomorrow, which will be followed by a nice drive out to Boston. |
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| 09:37am 08/11/2005 |
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So I'm in Minneapolis right now. I took off on Sunday and stayed in Lincoln, NE that night. Oddly enough, Lincoln almost reminded me or Fort Collins (no offense to Ft. Collins), but it just had a strong college town feel to it. Stopped in Omaha yesterday for lunch, which I really actually liked. After lunch I went on a walk with Raleigh along the riverfront. In just a t-shirt. No sweatshirt. In November.
I also stopped up in Ames, Iowa, which is, oddly enough, quite a beautiful little area. Around the campus it really reminded me of Boulder...maybe it's what Boulder would have been if it had been in the middle of cornfield, instead of at the foothills of the Rockies.
Driving north towards Minnesota I actually saw one of the most beautiful sunsets last night. The dark just seems to encompass the horizon, almost as if it is getting foggy. And then as the sun keeps going down, the entire sky turns magnificent colors, no mountains or anything to break up the colors. It was quite cool.
We got into Minneapolis around 8 pm last night. I decided to go out and take Raleigh for a walk, explore the area, and I step out the front door of the hotel and UMN's law school is right in front of my face. Which will come in handy later today when I am going over there. Now we're off to explore the city and find some place for Raleigh to run around like crazy, hopefully. That dog sleeps all day in the car, so he likes to keep me awake all night. Although last night was a lot better than before.
Stay tuned for more updates. My next stops are (I believe this is the right order): Marquette/Grand Marais, Michigan (a personal stop, not a school related stop); Syracuse, New York; Boston; New York City; Cleveland, Ohio; Chicago; and possibly (probably) Milwaukee for Thanksgiving. |
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| 10:38am 21/10/2005 |
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So, since I'm getting pre-ski season cabin fever, and am fed up with the restaurant industry during mud season (i.e., the season when no one comes up to Summit County), I am deciding to take a road trip. And it will actually be a productive road trip (I suppose there is such a thing).
It has been named "My Crazy Law School Road Trip".
Yes, I am visiting all the schools I have applied to within the next couple weeks.
I'm going to cheat by starting early next week and visiting DU on Tuesday.
But then, starting at some point in November (most likely the 7th or the 8th, not sure yet though), I will be taking off. And bringing the puppy dog with me. I think the technical purpose of that is to see how dog friendly the cities are, but in reality, he just makes a really awesome travelling companion.
I've got three different itineraries going. They all visit the same cities, just in different orders.
And the sad thing is that each of the itineraries is dependent on when I can visit Ben.
Yup, I've somehow convinced myself that the UP is going to be on the way. At least it does give me a little circle going on. But it's still out of the way. His job doesn't start until the 30th of October, so he doesn't have his schedule yet. And yeah, I guess I somehow ended up putting myself up there around the time of Thanksgiving. Which works if he doesn't have time off for Thanksgiving. It doesn't work if he does have enough time off, because then he's going to Milwaukee. Which he invited me to. So that's another one of my itineraries, is being in Milwaukee over Thanksgiving. And I have a third one, but I don't really remember what it is.
So, the cities (and schools) I'm visiting, in no particular order, are: Minneapolis (U. Minnesota), Chicago (DePaul), Cleveland (Case Western Reserve), New York City - which I'm totally freaking out about driving through Manhattan (Cardozo University), Boston (Boston College and New England School of Law), and Syracuse ('Cuse).
I'll keep you updated on what's going on with that. Not that anyone reads these things anymore....I don't think....
But if there is anyone out there reading this, and you are on my voyage, or you know somewhere that I can stay with Raleigh (the big issue there), let me know. |
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| 01:06pm 02/10/2005 |
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Despite popular belief, I am still alive. And doing well. Although not as well as I was expecting to do.
Everything was secured about Ben coming back here. It was planned, he would stay with me until he had a job secured, and he already did have a job secured at Winter Park but was looking for something in Summit County.
And then the stupid park service had to go and offer him the winter seasonal job at his park. And he couldn't really turn it down, they'd also almost set him up so that he couldn't say no.
So he's staying in Michigan for the winter. And it broke my heart. There was a very brief discussion about my going up there, but I don't think that's really going to happen, although I suppose it's still a slight possibility.
And then he was supposed to come back in a week and a half and visit. His dad was going psycho-anal about getting his furniture out of storage in Winter Park. And then when we talked today, his dad was a lot less anal about that, and instead was saying it wouldn't make sense to go out to Colorado. And I suppose October isn't necessarily the best time to visit Colorado anyway. So he's probably not coming out here in the next couple weeks. But he wants to see what his Christmas schedule will look like, so maybe he can come out for Christmas. And his friend from home Mike also wants to do a huge ski trip in January. So maybe somehow he can come back for both. I hope so. Because I think that was one of the hardest parts, was that we were already planning on going on ski trips together and planning on spending Christmas together. So, maybe we can still do that. I don't know. It's just tough, and it seems to keep getting tougher.
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| 01:21pm 16/09/2005 |
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i have yet to disappear off the face of the earth, although i feel like i'm getting much closer.
everything's great up here in summit county. the job is going pretty well, as well as a restaurant can in the off season. i've got a second job lined up, at a retail/rental store at copper, which will start late october or something. one of my managers at the restaurant is also a manager there. so that'll be nice, and it'll get me a copper/winter park pass, plus their employee benefits which are awesome. it will be cool too if ben gets a job at copper or winter park, because then we'll be able to go to ski resorts all across the country and not have to pay for lift tickets!
and, speaking of ben, he's coming back in about a month. i guess this type of relationship isn't so odd up here, seems like everyone's in the same place as me. but he's hopefully going to be done with his job at the end of this month, go back east for a week and a half (or so) and visit friends and family, then come back here. he's got his job back at winter park, but is looking for something in summit county, which i'd really like. and he'll be staying with me for a couple of weeks, until he gets a job and a place to live. that'll be kinda interesting...we've seen each other for 6 days in the past 6 months, and then he'll be staying with me for two weeks. but i don't doubt that everything will work out fine.
and, that's about all of an update i've got.
just a lot of law school applications going on right now.
i've narrowed it down to 11 schools, and think i've cut a couple of those out. we'll see. but i don't remember the schools off the top of my head. |
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| 10:29am 22/07/2005 |
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So I will no longer be on the internet.
Well, at least, not as often as before.
Naturally I managed to move into the one place I looked at that didn't have a wireless internet connection. In fact, my landlord has no internet connection (why do you need one at home when you have it at work all day?)
So I have two options. I can't get it through cable, since he has Dish. I can either get a phone line, and pay about $100/month for a phone I won't be using and for internet. I did that in one apartment a little while ago. Or, I can hope there is some sort of coffee shop with wireless access up there (since that's what I'm doing right now, down in Superior). Or the library, or anything like that.
Well, a quick update:
I spent the past week in LA. Lots of family, possibly too much family. But I did get to see Beck in Santa Barbara on Tuesday night. That was a great show. Probably not quite as awesome as his past ones, but he's getting older. Losing some of his spunk.
Drove back yesterday. Last weekend at Chili's. Monday I leave for Michigan, to go visit Ben. That will be interesting. But I'm looking forward to it.
Other than that, nothing much. Still hating living in two places, but won't be doing that for too much longer. |
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| 10:51pm 29/06/2005 |
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i'm just asking this for people to think about. comment if you feel so inclined (although probably won't really happen).
why is our society so obsessed with the idea of death? either their own death, or other people dying, being killed, etc. in the news, in the movies, in music. everyone is obsessed with the idea of death. or, even more, to the end of civilization. look at the movies that have come out recently: armageddon, war or the worlds, that movie about the earth being wiped out because of global warming or whatever. (keep in mind i haven't seen any of the movies mentioned). physical violence is such a huge part of our society, but why? |
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| 08:39am 20/06/2005 |
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so, i'm officilly going to be moving.
and it's a hell of a lot sooner than i expected.
my original plan was to renew my lease for the month of august, and in that month find a new place to live and a new job, while sticking around the current job during half the week just so i'll have a job. august was going to be the ideal month too, because i'm going to be travelling the second half of july.
so what happens? i can't stay here the month of august. so basically i need to find a place now, begin to move, and basically be moved in before i leave for vacation, all while still working down here a couple days a week since i know i won't be able to get a job up there until august. it's going to be a mess.
i've spent the past two days up in the breckenridge area, and i've checked out 5 different places in the process. for a part of colorado that's supposed to be so dog friendly, i had a really tough time finding places that allowed dogs. and most importantly, i wanted a place with a yard (yeah, that's going to be easy...) and yet, somehow, i pulled it off. i am torn between two places, one in silverthorne and one in breckenridge. the one in breck i am in love with, but it doesn't have a fenced in yard. so i think i'm going to go with the silverthorne one, which was my favorite until i saw the breck place. and i've weighed it out, and i think in the end it would make more sense to be at the silverthorne place, especially since it has an acre and a half of a fenced in yard (husky-proof, too).
and i got sick of looking at places. so i'm most likely going to call up there at the end of the day and agree to meet him up there in the next couple of days to sign the lease, and start moving in at the beginning of july.
i am still somewhat in shock that this is all happening. and happening so soon. but i'm very excited. now all i need is for winter to come :) |
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| 11:25pm 03/06/2005 |
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just a heads up. i'm planning on being in LA July 13-21. granted the 13th and the 21st are driving days, and i'll be alternating between LA and santa barbara, but i'd definitely love to see anyone out there. it'll be a long week...
and, even though this doesn't concern anyone for making plans, i'll most likely be out in michigan the following week.
wow. lots of travelling at the end of july! |
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| 06:31pm 31/05/2005 |
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i saw this from jess a while ago.
1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open the book to page 123
3. Find the fifth full sentence.
4. Post the text of the sentence in your journal along with these instructions.
5. Don't search around for the coolest book you can find. Do what's actually nearest to you.
"She can scarcely remember a time when she was not drawing dogs, and as a child she recalls drawing pictures of dogs she especially liked, pressing them into owners' hands and then rushing off."
- The Encyclopedia of Dog Breeds (yup, a coffee table book. and my coffee table happens to be right under my feet.) |
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i actually ran the bolder boulder today. well, technically, i probably only ran about 1/2 of it. but i did finish it, and i finished it in 78 minutes. which is pretty good, doing a 10K in that time when i probably haven't ran since high school. but it made me feel really accomplished, even though i didn't actually run the whole 6 miles.
and now, i can barely walk, the joint between my thigh and my hip probably got displaced (nothing unusual for me) and my calves are killing me. i decided to end with a bang, so i sprinted (to the best that i could at that point) up folsom into the stadium, and i think that got the best of me.
now i'm going to take a nice bubble bath with some hot tea and a good book.
pretty good way to end the day, considering camping isn't really an option (weather forecast: cold, wet, and miserable) |
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| 08:44pm 29/05/2005 |
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i've been wondering a lot lately what exactly love is. ( Read more... )
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| 09:04pm 28/05/2005 |
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you know it's not a good thing when you start quoting music that you would never listen to, let alone admit that you listen to (hey, i didn't buy the CD). but here's a song that just expressed all of what i'm feeling right now.
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| 09:40pm 23/05/2005 |
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last week, our chili's softball team was awesome. we scored 17 runs. we hit the ball all the time, we caught the ball most of the time. we totally won the game, we looked like rock stars. or, at least, we looked like ball players.
tonight, however, we must not have drank enough before the game. sure we hit some, we ended up scoring 10 runs. unfortunately the other team scored 13. i got two runs. granted, i got on base by walking, but i still got two runs for the team. but tonight, we looked horrible in the field. we couldn't catch anything (except for stephan, who has the tendency to stick out his glove and have the ball land right in it. literally.) chase was as lazy on the field as he is in the bar. the cooks can't catch or throw if their life depended on it. needless to say, it was a frustrating game that we should have won, if for no other reason than the fact that their pitcher couldn't pitch. she would literally walk people around the bases. have people scoring because she was walking them.
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| 11:28pm 20/05/2005 |
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so after an unusually intense evening (refer to my previous journal, about stuff going on with ben), i decide to go on down to chili's. afterall, what can be more relaxing than drinking a couple of beers with some of my friends.
half the bar is chili's staff. we're taking up one booth. amie and her boyfriend are in another. barrett and his girlfriend are in yet another (yes, it bothered me that all these people are there with their boy/girlfriends, because mine isn't here). then michael starrett showed up. i waved hi to him until i saw who he was with. i knew that he used to work at the broker inn with cisco, but i didn't know they were friends. lo and behold, cisco was there with them. that was the last thing i needed tonight. i mean, seriously. i'm having issues with the fact that ben is gone. and then this total asshole who is the last guy i dated before ben just happens to show up at my restaurant. needless to say, i wasn't too happy. the first half of the night, i was pretending to ignore him, like i didn't even know he was there. but a couple of times in transit i caught him looking over at me (at least i looked cute tonight). it just pissed me off so much that he would even be there. i'd been fearing running into him. not really since we stopped seeing each other, but since i starting seeing ben. because i was so happy with ben, i was afraid he'd ruin it for me somehow. indirectly, he tried.
and then tonight...
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